Bobbe Doty
Jealousy
I hate that I am so jealous.
WHICH, I think I have a pretty damn good reason to (Sometimes).
So he (Boyfriend) has this “friend” (GIRL) , and they supposedly are really just “friends”. Yet, he tells me that they had sex, TWICE (Before I knew him, btw). Yet, he went up to her after they had sex and said it was awkward and he never liked her like that (My boyfriend now had a booty call, great!). She “agreed” (Yeah, right.) Yet, now he thinks it is perfectly okay to talk to her every now and again. FUCK THAT.
First off, if it was awkward you wouldn’t have done it TWICE.
Second, since when does being “friends” require you to have sex?
Who agrees??
If only I listened..
First I would like to start by throwing all my problems on you, since it seems they are so overwhelming that I am not able to restrict them to only me.
I graduated from High School in 2011, and started my first year of college at UNCG as an Art Education student. I worked two jobs and was a full time student, barely keeping my head above water but making it, nonetheless. I came home for the summer and met a wonderful guy, which not soon after fell in love with him.
Needless to say, I didn’t return to UNCG that Fall and enrolled in a community college to stay with him. I lied about not having the money to attend to make my family and myself feel better about not returning. In the end I knew I was stopping my dreams for him. Was I stupid?
Yes. Yes I was.
Now I am dropping all my classes because I can not afford the books. I currently live with him and he doesn’t have a job, which neither do I. So now I pretty much quit school without admitting it. I thought I found a job but didn’t. I have no car and license. My family never helped me with a lot and I tend to try to do everything on my own. I came a long way but fell back more than I moved forward.
So now I am a dumb girl who decided to leave her dreams and goals behind for someone she loves. Still loves. With all her heart. Yet she is going no where to better herself. She is stuck. And depressed. And hopeless.
My life.
